He doesn’t have any idea how it hurts me when he talks about his future without mentioning me. I know our fate together isn’t so clear but I would love to be in his life. He is the biggest part of my life. How would I feel when he left me aside? He seems so prepared to live without me if we weren’t destined together. I guess he is being strong or just that he never needed me that much. Talking bout how he would organize ‘’his’’ home instead of ‘’our’’ home. Creating ‘’his’’ future instead of ‘’our’’ future together. I guess he got tired trying so hard to be perfect for me, so he wish to have his own life instead. I have never been perfect but I feel perfect for loving him, being with him and I don’t even try. It is so hard trying to swallow the fact that he is even trying to live without me although that is what I really wanted in the first place. But that is not what my heart desires. He gave me a feeling of watching sunrise every time I look at him. My soul had never been so perfect. I know we both are pretending. I know he is sad when he sent me a smiling smiley and I do the same thing too. I don’t even know why we are even pretending, it’s not like we don’t know each other. It has been 5years now. 5years of wonders. The things he did for me I rather not mention but I’m sure that no one could ever do the same. He gave me so much and I have nothing to give him in return. The roads we took and I regret the least. He asked nothing of me, just to be loved. and that I cannot give to him.



Xoxo..kyra