a devil sick of sin

im trying to start all over again..there is so much more in me than this,than just plain me..im so stressed out..this is not who i am,and im liking it and that is wrong..im trying to break free from the person i love the most..can he see that our relationship is doing more harn than good?its not that i dont love him,i never loved some1 like this b4..u dont know how much u meant to me,u r the only living person that can accept me for who i am,my bad and worse..i know there isnt much in me..im so sorry..love isnt justy about u n me..He is superior and im afraid..im a devil sick of sin..im so sick of u telling me that u love me,but u never lead me to the right way!! i know im a devil,i ask u to but me red horny horns cause thats just who i am..n u'll never get sick of me..cause i never appear to be a human,u see something else when u look at me..i knew,and that had lead to many things that i hated myself for..committing suicide isnt easy,mate!! it takes courage n i dont even have a knife..maybe my sins will bleed away..i dont want to contain it any longer..u cant exorcist me cause u r infected..i made u sick of me..i spit my pefection in u n that is all u see now..that is all u see now..