I want to run..but only far enough..to make u miss me

This feeling.I wouldn't get it anywhere else.When my eyes are swollen.My whole body aches.When I dont even feel like breathing but every single time I did,I wish I were somewhere away from here.I can hardly speak.Nothing really matter right now expect that some1 might save me from this.Crying is the last thing I wanna do even if that means anything.I just wanna get out of here,get out of my head.Even if it is just for a few days.I got no one to talk to.Im no angel.Who is better dying? Me or you? Harder and harder. Shout to my face harder as if I dont have a value. Harder and harder. Hit me as if you want me dead. To think that i might not see those eyes,makes it hard not to cry.