Lay me on a bed of roses.Send me away with the words of a love songs

Love for me is essential. I won’t take a certain someone from someone the same way I wouldn’t want someone to take someone I love away from me. As much as I want you for myself, I realise that a huge part of it is only due to my ego wanting to prove how capable I am in scoring a cute guy in 5 minutes or so. As hard as it may seem, what you both have between each other seem strong and sturdy to me. And I would be the last person who want to destroy that. I haven’t realised that until tonight but, clearly you wouldn’t say you wanna marry a girl unless you really, really love her. Unless you’re really stupid. But I guess you’re not. You loved her and always will. I’m just this popular-cheerleader-girl, a girl you always had the crush for in highschool. And that’s the way it is going to remain. Trust me, you won’t need a pretty face later in life. But I know who does. Him. And he is everything I ever wanted. He may not be as cute as you are, but he treats me way better. I mean like wayyy better ! and I may not like your girlfriend that much (I never really like any girl that is dating my future boyfriend), but still she loves you i guess. I guess I just hate her cause I think you are way prettier than her to be honest and the fact that we make such a lovely couple (by the way people stare). But who am I to judge? My words may seem very strong and firm when we are apart but when I’m in front of you, I’m lost for words. I can’t even think ! When the fact is I should be thinking whether or not to stick by you. I guess my feeling gets in the way too much whenever you’re around. I’m not sure if I was being honest or plain stupid when I said I love u after our 3rd date. Now I guess it is plain stupidity. At least I’m not heartbroken cause I haven’t really like you that much. You’re not Nazif, the guy that I love to hate yet whom I can’t stop blaming myself for loving and wanting him so bad. I told you, I wouldn’t wanna be anybody’s supporting role. I’m not here to support you. I’m not even here for you because if it is so, then it means that I’m opposing her which I am not. I don’t even know the side to both of your stories. I don’t know whose fault it is. And I don’t think I would want to know. I guess it’s not my problem after all and I wouldn’t want to make it mine. Not for now. So thank you for the trip~ nice meeting you. Have a pleasant day and hope to see you never. Thank you.