for the first time

That was lame,
I was totally nervous the first time I saw you after 4 years,
I tried to keep it cool,
But your staring light brown eyes really wasn't helping,
You had no idea tho that I am trouble.

From now on I hate surprises,
Especially if it involves ur parents being there,
I'm so not dress for it,
And yes that Forever 21 top does not count as appropriate,

That stare,
Makes me feel like I'm owh so prettay..
No one ever look at me the way you do :)

And the fact that it is so wrong,
Makes it feels so right,
And that fact is what keeping you away,
Why would you came back after this long,
Just to give me a glimpse of what could have been mine?
And so effortlessly it breaks my heart.
Luckily it was already shattered.

Maybe it is just stupid thoughts,
But I'm glad you said so,
I'm the ugliest person in my eyes,
I may not look like much,
But I guess I'mm yours.

After our second date, you said You love me,
And that's all I wanted to hear,
After all this time,
We just got the feeling we're meeting for the first time,
I made you waited for me for two hours.
And you said your record was 15 minutes ;)

And yes it was silly that I cried all the way home after our first date,
I didn't know what to feel,
I really like you,so much that I literally cried.

Of course,
Well,I forgot to eat the whole day today.
And I'm not even hungry.
And when I see you, a part of me becomes paralyzed inside.

Stupid me.

I just keep smiling to myself thinking about you.
Probably the stupidest thing ever.