Have u ever woke up one morning feeling so guilty of how u lived yesterday? As if yesterday could have been better? Have u ever felt so guilty of yesterday that u feel like u’re going to drown to death in the bath tub? U wish u could do something not just for the sake of urself but something that can benefits the others as well? Sometimes I wish I were a kid. Hope that can I can wash away my sins. I wish that im not so ignorant, I might as well think about the feelings of other people, maybe start meeting my friends when they ask me to instead of being my ignorant self and just sit at home or goes shopping like some spoil Paris Hilton wannabe. Im so guilty for living for even breathing. I know I can do so much more. I wanna help others. I am great in counseling and people don’t know that. I hope somehow I might be able to reduce the moral issues in my society. Like seriously, but people don’t take me seriously. Im seen as this pretty bitchy perfect girl who everyone talks about. I know that these people are nothing to me. Once I can prove what im capable of only then people will realize. I wanna do more. I don’t want to just look pretty, fall in love, goes shopping and others. I want to feel the heat of the sun on my skin, I want to donate. I wanna walk under the hot sun to deliver food to small children in war-infected countries. I wanna hear their stories, their lives because for me they are the only people who are truly living. They look up for tomorrow as a hope because they don’t know whether they will wake tomorrow or maybe tonight will be their last long sleep…



Xoxo..kyra